JustAnu

I liked them, maybe because I needed them (the more I think about it , the more I am sure of this). I wanted them to recognise me, appreciate me, and acknowledge me. I did everything that was in my risk-tolerance to be there for them, utilising all my privileges for them , as far as it was feasible for me. I didn’t like picking up calls. I told them this. They still called and I had to pick up. They would text at off hours. I couldn't take any official day off from their texts. Can you turn off your internet when you know half of your recognition comes from there, even if you know that's not worth your time. It's just their laziness I was tolerating and not actually adding value in someone's life. They asked me things I have already been informed about. They were too lazy to search for them in the common group. So they called me instead, to forward it to them. They have a bigger friend circle than me. Couldn't they approach their friends before approaching me? I had...

Things have been pretty blank these days. Since I am an intern, the only people I am answerable to, are my seniors at work (and this transition from being in a bunch of people of the same group to working is fairly new to me). The work timings depend, on department to department, from unit to unit and within weekdays too. Currently I am at a calmer place so I do not have anything major to worry about. Things will be changing from next week, for the next 6 weeks, about which I have no idea. I’ll get clarity on the coming Tuesday. Coming back to the blank, with lesser hectic days, most of my time is spent lying on the sofa, scrolling through my favourite youtubers’ content, anything I would like to shop on and adding them to the bag and never with an intent of actually buying them. When not scrolling, I will either watch a movie or read a novel or hear them on audiobook apps. The loops never seem to end. When I realise that I have time at my hand and I have nothing to do, I go online se...

It's been almost 10 days after the exams got over. With all that happened during the whole year, it took a little while for the realisation to set in. The last year was mostly spent indoors, either in the class rooms physically or by online- classes. The most I have done the last year was to absorb content. The content majorly comprised of the syllabus to be covered and during the breaks, it was either a movie or a YouTube video or any artical online , basically,  content.  I haven't been out of the city for 2.5 years now, except for the 1 day trip to hill which we about 50 km from the city I live in. On one side, yes I want to venture out. On the other , it's havnt been a habit for me so shall it matters so much ? I am not sure over this. Now that I am free majorly, I have been trying to do some things.  And all the plans I made before the exam, are not yet done. Does this happen only to me., that when things ain't possible, we keep planning for them and when the right...