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It's been almost 10 days after the exams got over. With all that happened during the whole year, it took a little while for the realisation to set in.

The last year was mostly spent indoors, either in the class rooms physically or by online- classes. The most I have done the last year was to absorb content. The content majorly comprised of the syllabus to be covered and during the breaks, it was either a movie or a YouTube video or any artical online , basically,  content.  I haven't been out of the city for 2.5 years now, except for the 1 day trip to hill which we about 50 km from the city I live in.

On one side, yes I want to venture out. On the other , it's havnt been a habit for me so shall it matters so much ? I am not sure over this.


Now that I am free majorly, I have been trying to do some things.  And all the plans I made before the exam, are not yet done. Does this happen only to me., that when things ain't possible, we keep planning for them and when the right times comes, we don't have the will to pursue them. I did note them down to make a list and now that I go through the list, it feels it will take efforts to accomplish them as will.

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