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that's what he left to me.

I held the Key Chain in my hand and stared at every nook and corner it had. It was well made and though it didn't look very expensive, it definitely  looked as it was made with perfection and patience. It had the initial of his first name at it.  'R',  it said. It wasn't intended to be with me. But, it just happened to be with me. I kept staring at it, going into flashbacks about what just happened in the past few hours or so,and trying to make sense out of that.

Today is my last day  at B and I  have already got my tickets booked for this evening 6 PM to say Good Bye Forever .I ain't sad. Its just a mixed feeling of somethings ending whereas others are willing to get started. This morning, I met R, just as we all friends were meeting up as the batch of 2022.  I have known  since  last 5 years. We are in the same batch ( I guess that's obvious by now) and have joked a few times we were working together for any event. I have always seen him happy and joking around, cracking jokes and making faces to himself but today was a different day. He looked calm and , abnormally silent . Though we were kinof friends, but I didn't have any rights to ask him if anything's wrong in his personal life. So, I chose not to ask. 

But, I wasn't going to leave the situation that easy!

I walked up to him and casually talked. Just Talked.

He  was his usual self. He always looked untouched by the world's cruelty and always radiated happiness and at time, if needed, stupidity to make the environment not-so-intense. That's the same way he acted now. I started doubting if I had judged him right and whether or not, something was troubling him. 
Just then he received a call and his expressions changed. He didn't speak much and after the call ended, told me he had to leave. I nodded in approval and said Good Bye. He almost ran but on the way dropped the key ring while taking out something from his pocket. He was too much in hurry that he didn't notice it falling.

I was brought back to the real life by the jerk of the train I was on. It was the biggest reminder that the journey to a new stage has already taken its beginning and there was no way I am coming back to these memories again.

Thank you
ANU

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