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Hey There, 

It's been a while I haven't vented out the things going on in the chaotic world around me. These are just my personal thoughts. Could be wrong. May not align with yours. But they are as they are presented.

Don't get me wrong. Being chaotic isn't a bad thing. Shall I rather use the word, Dynamic? Happening? More than what I think I should get involved into ?

There is a lot going on. There would always be something going on.

(The irony is, when I have actually taken out time to write down, the thoughts do not come.)

Let's get going!

I love it when I read the novels having the real happenings faced by the author, the kind of books written in first person? They aren't as preaching as the self help ones. They ain't fantasies which couldn't come true.

They are just being real, narrating what happened and how the author feels about it.  

The life's is going to be a long learning process and as we all might have read, lot of shit is waiting for us , where-ever we go. Yet, you got to do what you got to do.

What will keep us going through all this?

The love and compassion for what we do. 

The bunch of people standing for us and for whom, we stand strong. To celebrate and to guide, maybe not so right but at least, they are all there.

Is that all matter? The work you love and the people you love.

The money you make to be capable of  survival and even living lavish matters too.

Anything else ?

I don't know. There's a lot to learn. There is a lot to come.

All I can think off is working according to the priorities. At times, its okay to let go. Its okay to do nothing. It's fine to back off a few things.

I was afraid, of saying no. To disappoint people. To make them lose their faith on my capabilities. to make them feel that they were wrong about me.  Maybe, I still am. Yet, we need to know what aligns with us, our thoughts and our goals. I felt ditching people's faith on me will weaken the bond and will us us less dependable on each other. Well, does one sided opinion keeps a relationship going? 

Growing up, we all have our way of thinking. Things would keep changing.  There's a lot to learn yet never get into the trap of Fear-Of-Missing-Out. It's fine if you don't know something the other one is master about. It's fine if the one standing in front of you is ignorant of what power you and your knowledge holds. At the end of the day, we are all humans.

We can't master everything in the one lifetime. Nor we should aim for it anyway.

Its kind of feels scary at times. To let go things I could do. To deny things which others say that I am doing it all great. To turn down a higher position offered only because, I don't feel I'll be able to dedicate time for it . But why? There are other things I want to be there for, even if they don't earn me the name and fame I could, with the other stuff.

Does being limited to my interest areas we okay to survive the time being ?

Maybe.



That's all for now.

See you Soon.

ANU.


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