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In the middle of the Day

 My head aches and my nose feels blocked. I am sitting in the lecture hall as I write this.


Groups of students have gathered as they plan to visit the its a grand annual fest organized by college in Delhi. They are excited as its the first ( at least in front of me ) trip with FRIENDS they have recently been. They are excited to visit Delhi (fine, now you know that my college is far from Delhi ! In terms of distance, yes it definitely is !) And then, it is definitely the time of their lives when they can try and count upon each other for fest and events, memories and bonding


Sounds Exciting ! Does it ?

I bet you would have wanted to be a part of that too. 

But at this moment, as I write this, my head hurts with the buzz and the fuss around me. More than this, I do doubt while saying this, but is it normal for me not to be So Excited about this ?



The fact that next week, we are starting with our exams, makes the students less willing to attend the lecture . The class seems so empty . That's another strong moment when I doubt if I am doing it right by sitting in the class.


I want people, no matter stranger to me, at least be present as we are all united for the same cause ! We are all batchmates at last !


Obviously, I cant say this in the class out loud as I know At the end of the day to survive alone.


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