JustAnu

I liked them, maybe because I needed them (the more I think about it , the more I am sure of this). I wanted them to recognise me, appreciate me, and acknowledge me. I did everything that was in my risk-tolerance to be there for them, utilising all my privileges for them , as far as it was feasible for me. I didn’t like picking up calls. I told them this. They still called and I had to pick up. They would text at off hours. I couldn't take any official day off from their texts. Can you turn off your internet when you know half of your recognition comes from there, even if you know that's not worth your time. It's just their laziness I was tolerating and not actually adding value in someone's life. They asked me things I have already been informed about. They were too lazy to search for them in the common group. So they called me instead, to forward it to them. They have a bigger friend circle than me. Couldn't they approach their friends before approaching me? I had...

Things have been pretty blank these days. Since I am an intern, the only people I am answerable to, are my seniors at work (and this transition from being in a bunch of people of the same group to working is fairly new to me). The work timings depend, on department to department, from unit to unit and within weekdays too. Currently I am at a calmer place so I do not have anything major to worry about. Things will be changing from next week, for the next 6 weeks, about which I have no idea. I’ll get clarity on the coming Tuesday. Coming back to the blank, with lesser hectic days, most of my time is spent lying on the sofa, scrolling through my favourite youtubers’ content, anything I would like to shop on and adding them to the bag and never with an intent of actually buying them. When not scrolling, I will either watch a movie or read a novel or hear them on audiobook apps. The loops never seem to end. When I realise that I have time at my hand and I have nothing to do, I go online se...