JustAnu

It's Saturday again, yet it's one of those rare guilt free weekends I have to my self. All of the other weekends, mostly I'll have commitments for them, and I am guilty everytime I fail to deliver my claims. Not this weekend thought. This is one of those weekends when you enjoy an early afternoon tea with a random movie on the television ( including th advertisement breaks in between ) with lazy afternoon, a chattery evening and a night spent watching your favourite football match with late night pasta and coke. I am just a student yet. Not all my decisions are mine completely. It's not on the television I want to watch these matches on.. I was to go at the venue, with my friends and watch the match with the audience vibing there.  I don't want the match to end by just turning off the screen. I want to sit there, let it occupy my decisions for a day or two and comeback not just with scores, but with an unforgettable experience. The same thing goes for the movie. Not...

It's been a while since I have dressed up when there's nowhere to go.  It's not  that I actually dress up while getting out of home, it's just unusual to dress up to stay at home.  Today won't be just-a-stay-at-home.  There is someone really important to visit me today. I guess he would be here soon and it's been years. I would be seeing him after 3 long years.  I  took the final look at the place. It had to be exactly the same as he left it to be. The same way we set it on my arrival here.  I checked myself once again, I was in my maroon solid colored full sleeved knee length dress with a full sleeved denim jacket left open, with my favorite denim heeled boots. It was exactly what I was feeling at that moment, maroon reflecting modesty and beauty, shielded by denim as a sign of strength. No major makeup needed. I felt good to go. I don't know if all that we had gone through in the last few years is worth it . Was I at a stage I imagined  would be...

 Things feel hopeless. We wake up sweating, not enthusiastic about what's the day going on to bring. We know what the day have for us. I'll tell that throughout this blog. So yep, we wake up hopeless, getting ready for our work institution feels like a big task. We reach on time, take our seats and just sit, studying , discussing, talking and gossiping and sometimes just staring the phone screen or sleeping. We leave around 12 pm.  The things doesn't end there. After 12 till 5 I need to stay at the institution to get the attendence. 5 hours more spent hopelessly trying to accomplish but what exactly, I don't know. Don't think that we don't have anything to do. We have a lot on our heart and head. What I feel I lack is the drive, to do something. When I see what I ought to do the first thought is , No it's not going to happen..too long of a journey...too tough.. and so on. How much am I expected to sit in a room and be at the recieving end of information for ...