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That's the way I work!

 I exhaled the breath that was captured inside me, realizing that the person didn't intend to convey the news to me yet. I'll get my news.  I don't know how long that's going to take but my mind is beginning to take its troll. I just couldn't wait anymore!  Was the news even meant for me? I didn't know.

All I knew was , being patient is the only option to patient. 


I have been acting impulsively. Once I decide I want to finish off something, I'll do it anyway, without giving it a second thought. Once convinced, concider it's done. The whole efforts, are therefor, put into the Convincing process. It's freaking hard to convince me to do something. My friends often say, why do you think so much? Why are you so afraid of taking actions ?

I don't think I am afraid or I take too much time deciding. It's just, i don't have an explanation for this. If my Gut feeling says I should do it, I'll do it or otherwise. 

Following my own philosophies,  I do things I guess I shouldn't. At least, I conclude this after seeing the results of my deeds. 

And now, here I am, preparing myself to face the consequences and apologize. The incident would be forgotten by all in a day or two. But the lesson I have learn , the risk and survival experience I have got couldn't be taken away from me! It would be with me forever and here I concider myself at the step leveled-up.


THANK YOU.

ANU.

Comments

  1. SThankiFebruary 28, 2022 at 4:25 AM

    I'll term the decisions you make as thoughtful decisions 🧐, we can always take a pause and analyse and plan the stuff, that would indirectly save a lot of time going ahead.

    Keep writing Anu !!!😃💯

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  2. UnknownFebruary 28, 2022 at 4:59 AM

    😶😶

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  3. Lee_YuriFebruary 28, 2022 at 5:32 AM

    Dear Anu, thank you so much..
    Sometimes, it's hard to find our answers even from our past experience, but then we get them through a miracle. Thank you for bring that miracle for me 💜💜😃😍

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  4. Phoenix_talesMarch 1, 2022 at 3:25 AM

    Last paragraph pretty much sums up our life.. Incidents are forgotten but we remember the lessons!
    Beautifully written!! ❤

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