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Fading in, Fading Out

 

I fade in and out of my thoughts. I oscillate between the thoughts snatching my attention and later, liberating me to drift back to the soothing sleep which says that nothing else matters. My thought leaves my side when my sleep drifts me away with it and I come back to my never-ceasing-to-think brain with another dream. Everyone else in the home is asleep in their own imaginatory world that belongs just, just to them. As I open my eyes, nothing is visible to me. Darkness engulfs everything. No even ones shadow is spared from it. I open the window a bit more, to let in the moonlight shining and dancing outside. It enlightens the room a bit but not all the nook and corners of it. Stepping out from the bed, I turned on a little torch and searched for mirrors (I couldn’t turn on the lights as I don’t want to break the spell casted in the moment by the night).Now, by placing the mirrors the way I want them to be , I could direct the moonlight to the place I want it to glimmer arounds and also, away from the areas which deserves its attention the least ( in the present moment, in my opinion).

The place now becomes a dreamy one, with perfect area enlightened, reflecting the appropriate emphasis on their beauty and significance whereas the other stuff was hidden in the dark patches, making the moment appear as the piano of my mind which is ready to create a melody of its own, screaming out to the world of everything it feels.

Only for a few moments though, I felt I was liberated from the bondages the world have to offer so that I can feel Existing !

Living in a Bubble

A Few hours at Unknown Place

Book reviews by me. Expelled

 

Thank You

ANU

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