JustAnu

  I can stare at the sky and think about literally everything that’s there, be it connecting the dots of my past happenings that got me to the stage I am. While thinking about it, I feel as if I am narrating my favorite experiences to my long-gone friend. I jump from one experience to another, losing the chain of the story and eventually getting back from where I started. I think about the most practical things I can see in my future and what I’ll need to do for it. At times, I land up making alternate possibilities of how things might have turned out if I had made choices a little different from what I actually did. Sometimes, when I don’t want to think about anything in particular, I get my earphones and enjoy the music and the peace in me with the quiet of the night. Without anything to listen, my head will always be filled with something or the other. So yeah, that works sometimes. I see aeroplanes occasionally. They lit me up. Memories. Dreams. Possibilities. In these da...

A lot is going to change in a few months.  Right now, we are just into study and prepare for the exam, firstly securing its eligibility. These exams are important, super important and equally challenging. Feels tough to stay focused on the long-term goal while managing the other short-term urgent goals.  There is a lot of stuff that has been kept on halt till the exams. The to-do list will go on..... Most importantly, we will be out of the student role whose aim is just to clear off the exams well to someone with responsibility to do stuff worthwhile, having to play positive role and have a different learning experience. And yes, it is not that we will be free as a bird once the exam is passed. We will have responsibilities bigger than we now face and work in an aspect we have never done. The gears are expected to change. Something we have been waiting for since long, very long.   Right now, cutting off distractions is the main obstacle to be overcome. Got to focus o...

Be it the clothes that you opt for. Fashion is an expression right ? We choose clothes that are comfortable to our life just like our skin. But with all this fast and unsustainable fashion, the self-expression is losing is charm and so does our environment. Now fashion seems more of a task to fit yourself in the fake world. Buy less, smart and the only stuff you feel can represent your true, long term expression. Coming on to the next thing, the friendships we build. It takes time to understand someone, to know their goods and to know their bads. And so does the person needs times and experiences to understand your true sense of being in their life. It will take time and vulnerability and heck lot of experience. I feel there is no end to how well you can understand someone. One cannot just opt for the good qualities in another human being and look for another perfect one once they discover the bads in the previous person. That would be a mess. The third thing in my mind to support ...

“We all have days when we feel everyone, we see around is the rich, pretty, smart.” He said, trying to handle the situation for the n-th time.   “Happy as well.” It was a decision more than a query. I couldn’t stop myself from blurting it out.  “Maybe, at least that’s how it seems.” He said absently. I know that the social media impacts him as well. Even though he hadn’t completely quit it the way I have, he seemed to have better control on how he sees it. At least from my end, the conversation was non-leading. I didn’t want a fixed stance on what’s right and what’s not. I wanted to admit that everything has a spectrum and beyond the extremes, where everything seems to be in the most captivating and irresistible to get inclined towards, it’s okay to be in the grey area in between.  I had recently joined a coaching academy where it was harder to avoid the social vibes than it was at the college. In college, everyone appears similar, with the white aprons covering th...

I t is so calm viewing the night sky from the terrace of my home. I can only see the half-moon with no other bright light in the black sky. There are no clouds to give the grey shade to the sky. Of course, the other lights that glow comes from homes underneath the sky.  No noise comes from those homes and the flats of the apartments. they reflect just the light glow. For the amount of time I was there, I couldn't even see a person around. For most of the people, it's that time of the day when they come back from their work, have dinner with the family and have little fun, relaxing their minds from the mess they faced today and prepare themselves for a similar day, the next day. The working class of people might have finally got the time to spend good time with their kids, the older ones spend this time sitting in an open area, reflecting upon the lives they have lived so far. The little ones might have finally got time to finish their homework and prepare for the tests and assi...

"I have got somewhere to be." I told them confidently when I had no clue of where will I be after 10 mins. I needed my own time, a little time away after all the time spent with them, for the past 4 hours. Wasn't that enough ? The long 4 hours spent in the room , where we were supposedly free to do anything we want, with no one to check upon us yet, the resources were the only things that could fit in our bags.  Getting out of the place was what I was waiting for since the  time boredom dawned and practically, we have nothing to do. I came up the common girls room. No one would come here. There wasn't any fixed rule for who and when can somebody  enter or leave, but from all the time I have been visiting, this place was practically never used and that was what I exactly wanted. A place where I can find some time off the chaos, where I can do my tasks with all the focus or all the distraction that I need at that time.. Otherwise, what other options did I have ?  ...

It's Saturday again, yet it's one of those rare guilt free weekends I have to my self. All of the other weekends, mostly I'll have commitments for them, and I am guilty everytime I fail to deliver my claims. Not this weekend thought. This is one of those weekends when you enjoy an early afternoon tea with a random movie on the television ( including th advertisement breaks in between ) with lazy afternoon, a chattery evening and a night spent watching your favourite football match with late night pasta and coke. I am just a student yet. Not all my decisions are mine completely. It's not on the television I want to watch these matches on.. I was to go at the venue, with my friends and watch the match with the audience vibing there.  I don't want the match to end by just turning off the screen. I want to sit there, let it occupy my decisions for a day or two and comeback not just with scores, but with an unforgettable experience. The same thing goes for the movie. Not...