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 It's dark all around and I keep ok walking. I know how to do it, or rather , I have learnt thus skill over time. .I hated to be alone not because I can't walk with no one beside me, but instead, I loved the company of people who resonate with who I am. I believe that if we change the people around us, for the time being  it could change the way we feel and think ( okay, it might be wrong,  but till things are positive, all is well). As time passes by, majority of us realise that it's RARE to find people who resonate effortlessly with us.

Okay , no regrets  !..

I have began to love solitude and lose my self in its peace and nothingness. Why do we Always have to be a part of Something !. 

I walk on, embracing every imperfection and insecurity and yet, I feel super proud of everything I am and everything I am not. I desire to live a life with human genuineness and I loath the idea of giving up under materialistic greed.

At times, the calm and cool breeze of the night us enough to heal the scars of the day. It's dark all around and I keep walking.

There us a tap on my shoulder and then an arm brushes on mine. I turn around and the little star light is enough to recognize. It's known. It's familiar. It's boyish. He smiles and ut makes him look even more boyish ,not neglecting the disheveled hair and clean shaped mandible 😉. 

His smile grows wider and I mirror him on that.  It's dark all around and I keep walking  but this time, with a companion. I am clueless which chemical of my brain make me feel this , but now I feel  less like a stone-hard-person and more desperate for conversation and acceptance.

Can human sight, voice and everything be actully healing and soothing !? I don't have nay clue to answer this.

"Hey, I actully wanted a favor from you." He atlast  muttered and I wasn't that excited after listening to those words. I nodded in approval and he poured out the whole description of what was to be done. 

Not knowing anything else to do or say  I nodded again and he took it to be a Yes for the task . I took it the same way too.

The smile was still there, but the reason behind that changed. At first it was worried yet put for a strong reflection but now, I guess he was really cheerful and devoid of any worry.

With loud thudding on the ground, I heard his friends running and coming towards us. They screemed something enthusiastically and took the person with me , who was theirs now. U watched him run, stumble, run again, faint at my sight and at last disappearing.

Everything was just the same outside, calm and cool breeze and the night. Things looked even brighter with the appearance of the stars with clouds giving way to the star-light. The night just left  even more weekend and needy for the companionship, genuine acceptance whose glimpse was just offered to me.


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